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Rants.
02-29-2012, 08:50 PM (This post was last modified: 02-29-2012 08:59 PM by BEE..)
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RE: Rants.
I don't rant very often. But when I do, I hate it because I know there are people out there worse off than me.

But I really, really, really hate having M.E! I've been ill since September 2006. Just TWO months from becoming a teenager, and since then my life has gone down hill. I played A LOT of sports. Seven at once, and I really miss it all. I was in better shape than I am now, and I miss that. I've not too long turned 18, and a couple opf days ago, the fact that I'm 20 next year just hit me. That's really scary fdor me, as I've been cooped up inside since I was 13. I don't have any friends my own age. [and to be honest I can't be bothered with immature teenagers, who think it's "cool" to get so drunk they don't remember their night.] That's all they are around where I live. I get on better with adults, as that's all I've been around since falling ill. I miss seeing people my own age though. I really do. Lately my sleep have been TERRIBLE! I'm currently really tired, but wide awake, and only get 3-4 hours of sleep, as I fall asleep at 5AM, which is CRAZY!
Okay, so last year I did manage to get onto a 3 month college course, which I absolutely loved! And the tutor, well he was fantastic with dealing with me and my M.E. After finishing the 3 month course, I did gain two qualifications which is great! I still can't believe I've had to give up the 1 year course, and it's a shame he's not there. Don't you hate it when you only just learn you can trust someone only to find they're not in the place they told you they'd be if you ever needed to talk? He's the sort of person who doesn't judge you.
For nearly two years now, I've been going through something which a majority of people don't believe in/think is weird, but I can't explain it. All I can say is, that I love it!
I do know what I would like to do when I [hopefully] get better. Maybe just travel for a little while if I can. New York is at the top of my list. I've been so cooped up, I just want to see how beautiful the world really is!

Sometime I actually sit and wonder if I really am supposed to work with animals. I mean, I LOVE them, but I don't know who I want to be. I don't even know who I am yet.
Iknow I'm just 18, and I have years to decide, but I like to keep busy, and having something to aim for makes me happy. I just need to figure out what it is I have to aim for. It might sound crazy, but I don't know what my interests are. Or my personality.

I just don't know any more. I'm stuck.

[Sorry for any spelling/grammar/non capital letter errors. I'm not really in the mood to correct myself right now.]

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RE: Rants. - Firefly - 06-11-2012, 12:38 AM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 06-11-2012, 01:00 AM
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RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 06-12-2012, 01:52 AM
RE: Rants. - Londonlipton - 06-12-2012, 04:25 AM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 06-12-2012, 09:42 AM
RE: Rants. - cblodg - 06-12-2012, 02:40 PM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 06-12-2012, 04:33 PM
RE: Rants. - BEE. - 06-14-2012, 05:04 PM
RE: Rants. - mirandagirl - 06-21-2012, 06:38 PM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 06-21-2012, 08:12 PM
RE: Rants. - mirandagirl - 06-21-2012, 09:32 PM
RE: Rants. - Firefly - 06-22-2012, 12:43 AM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 07-03-2012, 01:21 AM
RE: Rants. - puckleberryftwx - 07-03-2012, 11:43 PM
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RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 07-04-2012, 12:31 AM
RE: Rants. - puckleberryftwx - 07-04-2012, 12:37 AM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 07-04-2012, 01:00 AM
RE: Rants. - leftbehind. - 07-11-2012, 06:43 PM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 07-11-2012, 06:55 PM
RE: Rants. - leftbehind. - 07-11-2012, 06:58 PM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 07-11-2012, 07:01 PM
RE: Rants. - michelle. - 07-11-2012, 07:06 PM
RE: Rants. - puckleberryftwx - 07-23-2012, 05:16 AM
RE: Rants. - gallagher - 09-03-2012, 12:54 AM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 09-17-2012, 03:26 AM
RE: Rants. - BEE. - 09-21-2012, 04:00 PM
RE: Rants. - puckleberryftwx - 09-24-2012, 04:30 PM
RE: Rants. - teamnoelftw. - 09-24-2012, 06:29 PM
RE: Rants. - Stephanie - 09-25-2012, 01:14 AM
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RE: Rants. - puckleberryftwx - 09-26-2012, 06:25 AM
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RE: Rants. - LuuuuuM - 01-02-2012, 06:22 PM
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