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Rants.
07-27-2013, 04:57 AM
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RE: Rants.
(07-27-2013 01:34 AM)mariahh. Wrote:  I met this guy through my Miss Teen stuff, and I knew I shouldn't have gotten involved more than professionally. He told me he was interested in me, but was afraid to start to because he didn't know if I would give him the time of day, since we work together for miss teen stuff, and so I hesitated and told him that i wanted to be professional and was scared it'd be bad or awkward if it were to end horribly, or if one of us got hurt (mostly if I got hurt..)

anyways after a few months of working together, i began to fall for him. he was pursuing me hardcore, and I admit i liked the attention, (i recently a few months before this got out of a terrible relationship that he would call me a b ALL the time, but that's another story) I told him i started to like him, and so he did ask me to be his girlfriend,
here is where it begins.

for one, i am not one to get mad over something on Facebook, but he still had his ex girlfriend listed as his currently girlfriend even though she changed hers to single when they broke up? so I'm not even sure how that was an option. ANYWAYS, yeah. so after he asked me to be his girlfriend we hung out outside of miss teen events, and it was a good time, but then he started to treat me differently after we fooled around once? i felt crappy after that time because i felt "easy". i'm not one to do things right off the bat AT ALL, and it takes time, because that type of stuff means a lot to me i guess. (i didn't sleep with him at this point)

couple more times we hung out, we slept together, and it was my first time. he knew it was, and then didn't call or text me for four days after that.. the next time i saw/talked to him was at an event we had together... and to my surprise, he brought his new GIRLFRIEND to my event, to sit on my stage. and kissed in front of me. His best friend who was also there, told me they started dating the day we slept together (his friend didn't know we did, but he told me when they started dating and it was a coincidence)

so that's where the biggest break for me was.

then, they broke up after a month, and we started to talk again, and he invited me up to his cabin, but i couldn't go because of work obligations, then he came back home and i snuck out of my house (which im not a rebel AT ALL) to see him, and what happened? stuff, so he hasn't texted me since.

obvioulsy i was never anything more to him than a hook up. I made myself too easy, and It makes me really sad it was like that. i dont regret it because id ont believe in regretting something you once wanted, but i wish i did it differently.

i wish i meant more to him, and i dont know what to do. i know i should move on and forget about him, but easier said than done.

theres soemthing about him, that makes me feel powerless and not in control and i HATE that feeling. I usually am ALWAYS controlling (i know it can be a bad trait) but with him i can't say no, and at that moment, it feels right, but after i feel crappy.

I'm sorry to say but he doesn't sound like a real winner and it's good u are figuring this out now instead of getting involved deeper and getting hurt. We all go through that feeling of being helpless and unable to say no. I went through that too when I was with my ex. He would play me for a fool saying he loved me and would find me at work and tell me he wanted back together.....then the next day he would act like I didn't exist. It really took until I found my fiance to really get my head on straight. Guys have a way of messing with our minds and making us think it's what we deserve.

I was watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower the other night and it's true what they say, we always love the wrong person because we allow ourselves to believe that's all we're worth. We always go for the guy that we know won't be able to hurt us as deeply because it will always be a shallow relationship that if it gets ugly we can blame them and then ourselves for just being us and falling for that "type."

I'm here to tell ya that it's not even about finding the perfect man or the perfect person. It's about finding what is perfect for you. If you settle for less than you deserve that's all you will ever get. Find a man who you can argue with but who wants you around just as much if not more than you do. Find someone who is different and isn't the usual type. Go out looking for a man who is also looking for forever. You don't go into it assuming it's going to work out forever, but you want someone who's willing to make it work even if you're mad at each other. Find someone that you can build trust with. Someone that even if you say the worst things to each other sometimes, u can't imagine not falling asleep next to them and ACTUALLY sleeping. It has to be a relationship built on love and trust and being together with the sex intermixed into the relationship.

Michael and I didn't sleep together until 7 months after we got together. This wasn't easy and it was my first time (and he's been married before) but it let me see that he's going to want me around even after the sex isn't as "good". He's still going to love me when I'm pregnant and not in the mood for sex. He's going to love me when we have children and when we get married. He's going to love me through the good and the bad times. It doesn't matter if he is stubborn and drives me up the wall with his moodiness and short fuse after he works 14 hr days all week; I still love him even if I don't always show it the best. It's been close to three years and it's hard when all you want to do is get the money, get the job and settle down. It's never easy but you have to find someone who you feel needs you in his life just as much as you need him. It's horrible to say but sometimes you need to have the feeling that you did TOO good for yourself and you do not and will never deserve him. If he feels the same way about you, then he's a keeper. If once he finds you, ur all that he sees and all that he cares to protect, then he's a keeper.

It might take years to find this guy for you....and he might not be what you'd expect but he'll be exactly what you need in your life. This chump with the many ladies does not sound like he's worth it. People think I'm nuts for making Michael wait for 7 months but it was the best choice I ever made. I'm not gonna lie and say he was happy about it but I had to know he was really in love with me and not just my body. No man who doesn't love you will stick around for THAT long just to get a piece. It worked for me but that's always a case by case situations. Everyone is different but just move on from this experience and try not to be too hard on yourself. It's a learning experience and it could have become a lot worse. Know that he's beneath you and it'll make getting over him a lot easier.

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