i still love my ex.

[saraaah]

the title says all really.

i broke up with him late december, he was rude and he always flirted with other girls and i hated it, and i felt like i was over him. so i ended it.
since then we've become reeeally good friends, and i realised i still loved him after a while.
i told him, and he said he loves me too. NOT LIKE. LOVE.

i asked him back out, face to face.
most terrifying thing ever, ahah.
anyway, he said "idk.. i wanna say yes, but theres stuff.. can i talk to you later?"
and i said yeaah course.

FOUR AGONISING DAYS LATER we spoke on msn. and he told me that he still LIKES me, but he doesnt think it would work.
i was doing all i could to reassure him but then he had to go, so we said our goodbyes and left.
three weeks yesterday was when i asked him out, and three weeks this friday will be the last time we spoke about it.

why is he taking so long and not even talking to me about it?
why did he get my hopes.. 'i want to say yes...'?!
im already pretty sure hes going to say no,
and the longer he waits to say no, the more its going to hurt.
and i know im young, but i cant see myself getting over him anytime soon.
like, i think about prom, which is over a year away, and i think.. gosh, if i see him arriving with another girl.. i wont be able to take that.
i dont know what to do anymore. i never used to cry in public, ever. and now i find myself breaking down at school, twice to be exact.
everyone says i can do better, and i know i can - but i dont want anyone else. i dont even know if i want him anymore. but i know i definitely still have feelings for him. everything reminds me of him somehow - its hell.

help? please?

[violent delights.]

the best advice i can give you love is confront him about it with as much confident as you got. yes it's going to be terrifying as helll. but just remember what your there for, and don't let it get to youu. (:

[Booyah]

He already gave you his answer.. He said he didn't think it would work out, so I guess that's a no.
It really sucks, but I don't think there's something you can do about it.
The only thing to do is to get over him.
and I know that's not easy -.-

[saraaah]

the best advice i can give you love is confront him about it with as much confident as you got. yes it's going to be terrifying as helll. but just remember what your there for, and don't let it get to youu. (:
gaaawd i dont know if i can do that. if he comes on msn i will, but face to face will not work for me!

He already gave you his answer.. He said he didn't think it would work out, so I guess that's a no.
It really sucks, but I don't think there's something you can do about it.
The only thing to do is to get over him.
and I know that's not easy -.-
yeaaah, i guess =/
this reeally sucks huh.

eeuugghhh ill get over it.

[violent delights.]

yess, that's the same with me!
i can't do face to face convos.
buuut you know what? if msn is in your comfort zone then do it.
cause i bet you can, your a confident guurll and don't let
anyone tell you different. (:

[InnocentlyClumsy]

If it makes u feel any better, I've got the same issue and mine is 1000 times more pathetic haha.
He was this guy I dated at 13 or 14.....whatever was 7th grade, and it was only 3 months but during that time I felt loved by someone other than my parents. He made me feel special, then broke my heart by having his mom break up with me that summer. It sucked and I was in a depression my entire 8th grade year. Now I am 18 and ready to graduate, YET I still wonder about him even though we haven't spoken in like 3-4 years at least and I doubt he'd know who I was.

.....Then there's this 20 year old I had a major crush on sophomore year who has an amazing mom and she loves me ahahha. He wanted to get me drunk and have sex but I said no and now 2-3 years later I'm kinda wondering what he's up to. I honestly think I'd have a better chance with him than my 7th grade bf ahah. I never even dated the guy though :]


So see....ur doing a billion time better than me and all I gotta say advice wise, is if you don't talk to him and get it resolved, you'll be like me and sit around wondering about him and wishing you'd said just one more thing and got it worked out. I have unresolved bfs and crushes....it's one of my many flaws.

[marchin on.]

boys suck(: