i NEED to let this out!!!!!

[lovesick]

OHMYGOD!
thats just the start of it!

ok so some of you may remember that my mom broke her leg almost FIVE months ago. and i still isnt healed FIVE FUUCKING MONTHS! she is driving my crazy.

AND to top it off i have a ten year old brother who is their prince. the things i have been doing now are the same things ive been doing since i was seven.
HE CANT EVEN TIE HIS FUCCKING SHOES!
and hes TEN!he doesnt make his own food. hell i could make mac and cheese by the time i was eight.

I CANT GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS. and when i talk about my friends they always roll their eyes and when nathan walks about his friends they're all like oh thats so cool. whenever my friends ask if i can come over my mom and dad always say no. so now i feel like im losing my best friends because i cant hang out with them (<----- there you go carrie)

i dont have anytime to do my homework or study. so now im FAILING EVERY class. anad when i ask for help they always say oh i cant help you, or they laugh, or they just plain out dont look at me. so when my brother asks for help whos the first person they send him to?????
ME!
when im doing MY homework.
and because im doing laundry and stuff like that i can never finish my homework. so i get in trouble for getting bad grades!

and i also have to share my room with my mom so all of her stuff is in my room and the other day my dad was fixing the curtain i got yelled at cause there was no room on my dresser so my room is a mess and i get in trouble.

i always wake up late and i almost miss the bus so i get yelled at in the morning.

i get picked on in school

and the teachers all hate me!

im starting to break down even when someone talks to me!

thats why i love reading cause most of them have happy endings. and why i love cinderella cause i can relate to her so much. and why i love music because i can find something that fits my mood.

i just want to let that out.
ill probably add to this.
thanks for reading all of it if you did

[zacislove92]

awww im sorry, i kno it must be hard for you. i would just try and explain to ur parrents ur point of view and how its affecting your life, it kno it sounds cheesy but it just might help:-)

[lovesick]

yeah i try and they laugh at me cause they dont believe it

[spunky]

aww im sorry.
that isn't fair one bit.
maybe talk to your principal or something there about this and explain why your not doing good or anything. and your friends, tell them why you can't go with them or are they allowed to come to your house?

and WOW five months?
what the hell is she doing? throwing herself down the stairs everytime it starts to get better?

[lovesick]

no shes not doing that....at least i think shes not.

but if i go to the principal he would probably tell my mom and dad and then all hell will break loss

[spunky]

haha i was just kidding about the stairs thing.

hmm ask him if he can keep it private or do you have a guidance consular there?
they always tell me that if i want to talk i can and they won't tell my parents.

[lovesick]

oh lol she might be idk

but our school has like 3 guidance people

[Ritta]

I'm sorry.....I know that this won't help but if you need to talk to someone ..just to tell your feelings remember that we re always here trying to help you....

[lovesick]

thanks im glad i have people on here

[Jordann]

aw i'm so sorry hun, that is not fair at all.
you definitely should see your guidance counselor. i go to mine with everything,
she's awesome and it's entirely confidential, don't worry. she won't tell anybody
anything. i think that's your best bet.

[lovesick]

^^thanks

[lovesick]

bump

[JDO]

i feel sorry for you.
i dont really no what to say, as ive never been in that situation before.
havent you got any other family members to speak to?

[lovesick]

nope because if i do then it spreads like a wild fire

[anotherday]

aww im really sorry.
i feel so bad for youu.
it must suck having to do all that.
if you ask your teachers for help..
do u think they would..its not your
fault you dont have time for school..your
spending your time taking care of your mom..
you sohuldnt be failing because of that. im so sorry
and i really hope her leg heals up quick.

[lovesick]

yeah me too!
this is getting annoying having to do everything
i mean i love her and everything but sometimes i want to be left alone

[luciddreams]

ugh, i know how you feel.
so, you take the bus? is it possible to take a later bus? if not, maybe talk to a friend about what is going on. i bet they would be willing to tutor you, or stay after school with you and go around to teachers and get help. and then your friend/'s parent could drive you home.
and if you cant do that, maybe you could just tell your teachers that its pretty much impossible for you to get anything done at home, and maybe they could make a special plan for you; like, give you more time for assignments and homework.
about the brother thing; next time you have to do something for him, show him how to do it himself. it might take a little longer at first, but he should get it and then be able to do it himself.

[lovesick]

ok thanks

[carrie.beth]

awwwwwwww there is seriously tears welling in my eyes
and your mom just plain hates me cause we used to talk on the phone like every day and now she is always on the phone when i call and she says that u will call me back but doesnt even tell u that i called

[lovesick]

aww
my mom doesnt hate you!
shes just mad cause i dont do anything when im on the phone

[carrie.beth]

you shouldnt have to do everything!

[losing shadows.]

BRITANY- i didnt no about this.
):
im sorryyyyyy.
trust me life is hard, but it wont be bad forever.
im here for you!
i promise.

[lovesick]

^^aww thanks megan
we'll watch jonas together one night!