Catastrophic
01-03-2009, 12:07 AM
um this stuff is really embarrassing to say but, i need somewhere to vent and get help so here goes...
basically my dad has been dating this woman i don't like at all and after only A FEW MONTHS they got engaged! i know. and i don't even like her, she's only after what little money he does have..
so we had dinner today. and he actually showed up. so i'm happy that he showed up instead of calling me from somewhere making excuses as to why he's NOT with me. and he basically tells me that they're having a destination wedding and i'm not invited. he didn't straight up say that, but the bottom line is, i'm no going to my own father's wedding. it's not like want to go, but isn't it common courtesy to invite your own daughter if you're gettng married? but my soon-to-be-step-siblings ARE invited. he's known them like a FEW months and me for ALMOST SIXTEEN YEARS. i guess i'm just jealous becaue he's fathering them and has never been there for me. :/
not to mention i don't want new stepsiblings. :/ or a stepmother..
and it just sucks because whenever i actually try to have a relationship with him he's not interested. i know everyone will say to tell him how much he's hurt me and bablahblah but whenever i put out effort to reconnect or just talk he denies me. i'm mostly writing this to vent my anger towards him right now.
i'm going over the edge. i'm so mad and jealous and upset and confused about this and relieved the holidays are FINALLY over and all this crp. i can't take any more of this bs.
basically my dad has been dating this woman i don't like at all and after only A FEW MONTHS they got engaged! i know. and i don't even like her, she's only after what little money he does have..
so we had dinner today. and he actually showed up. so i'm happy that he showed up instead of calling me from somewhere making excuses as to why he's NOT with me. and he basically tells me that they're having a destination wedding and i'm not invited. he didn't straight up say that, but the bottom line is, i'm no going to my own father's wedding. it's not like want to go, but isn't it common courtesy to invite your own daughter if you're gettng married? but my soon-to-be-step-siblings ARE invited. he's known them like a FEW months and me for ALMOST SIXTEEN YEARS. i guess i'm just jealous becaue he's fathering them and has never been there for me. :/
not to mention i don't want new stepsiblings. :/ or a stepmother..
and it just sucks because whenever i actually try to have a relationship with him he's not interested. i know everyone will say to tell him how much he's hurt me and bablahblah but whenever i put out effort to reconnect or just talk he denies me. i'm mostly writing this to vent my anger towards him right now.
i'm going over the edge. i'm so mad and jealous and upset and confused about this and relieved the holidays are FINALLY over and all this crp. i can't take any more of this bs.