not really advice but yeah

[AFRICA]

I'm pretty sure none of you can help me, but I feel the need to post this in an active forum so people will feel sorry for me thus making me feel better in the end.

lalala, so my dads been in jail for a little over a year (none your business).
And tomorrow or today depending on when you read this my mom might go to jail as well.
Now this will leave me (17) my little brother (7) and my three dogs (12) (10) (4) don't know why I included their ages alone. My grandma said that I have nothing to worry about because my mom is leaving money that will cover 6 months of rent and she will help us with money food etc and moving into our new place.

Thing is i'm going to be the adult. My entire life i've depended on my mom and hoenstly i'm sure i've taken her for granted. I'll have to be the parent to my little brother which is going to be hard because he's wild. My grandma said we can live there but my little brother (who is actually my nephew/cousin but i call him my brother) gets on her nerves and she doesn't know if she can handle him. If I let him go he will go live with his REAL grandma and i'll probably never see him again because they've been wanting to take him away for a while now, and I don't want that because I love him to death.

And to top everything off, I have one dog that's blind and needs eye medicine every so often and crap. Ill have to keep the house clean, feed the dogs, feed the brother/dog as well lmfaoooooo and do everything else. We will move into a smaller house that's cheaper to rent but still i'm scared.

Though I feel a bit selfish, as I am very anti social and addicted to the computer my main worry is not having internet and whatnot and I feel horrible for only caring about that at the moment when I could essentially become an orphan due to both my parents being gone.

My sister (19) said she would come down to the house and help out or whatever, but she's pregnant and moody yeaheyah.

LMFAOOO MY family sounds fu*ked up doesn't it.
ahahah hahrhhahrh
fucck

oh and this is why i dont believe in god. over the past 2 years nothing has gotten better my life every day gets worse and worse. i pray and pray and pray because people say "OH GOD LOVES YOU HE WILL KEEP YOU SAFE JUST PRAY" well godflappin damnit i've been praying and it just gets worse

[lonelynights.]

awe man im sorry.
meeh, theres not really advice to give
but hope everything works out.
hope my sympathy makes you feel better. hahahh.

[AFRICA]

yay for sympathy
now maybe people will understand why i'm so negative all the time. I mean nothing by the rude comments I make I just don't know how to be nice lmfaooo

[poisonivys]

there's a reason for things like this,
maybe it's mean't to be lmao
sounds wrong
maybe you will move with your sis.

[AFRICA]

yes exactly it's meant to be...
and my sis lives with my grandma as well

[WhisperedLies]

I'm sorry! Well, I know what it's like to kinda have to be the adult sometimes. I know it's a lot of pressure. But it will get easier in time.

Honestly dude, God is there for you-he never left you or forsake you. I know I'm starting to sound like a Pastor, but I'm not. When I walked away from God, it was the worst two years of my life. But when I found him again recently, everything became a lot easier to deal with. You're never all alone.

[jordan .]

Wow that sucks.
i hope my sympathy makes you feel a bit better coz i honestly feel terrible.
But don't give up on praying, everyone has a dark point in there life but eventually you'll come out of it and your life will be as close to perfect as possible. I know it sounds like a load of crap but i've witnessed it plenty of times. Just stay strong, you will get through it.

[brandnewlove.]

okay some spammer bumped this up lol.


that's so messed up.
i can understand you with the internet thingy, i'm very computer addicted.
i do hope it'll get better for you soon.
do you belive that it'll get better?
(:

[Mama1975]

I hope things are working out for you. That is intense and a heavy responsibility - I hope you are managing alright. You will have no judgment on your family from me, man, life happens, people get trapped in cycles and sometimes it is just a struggle for some to get by day-by-day. I like your love and commitment to your little brother.

[lost in the stereo.]

hunz.
Just hang in theree!
things will get better lolz, you probz heard that a thousand times but hey cmon.
Noones life can be a shiite hole forever

xoxo
VampiresGirlfriend.

[pretty strangers.]

yeah i doubt god too as well sometimes.
but the thing is youre not the only one going
through things like this.
but hope things work out for the best [[;

[_onmyown]

I have been sick since the age 15.
It got alot worse when I was 22.
Had to go on dialysis.
Since then it just seems like one thing after another has happened.

I am a christian and I do believe that God will take care of things.
Everything happens for a reason, even though we dont know what it is.
And remember that God takes care of things in HIS time, not in YOUR time.

I hate it, well I dont hate it, but I get SO sick of hearing "Everythings going to be fine." "Everything will turn out ok, just have faith." "Keep praying, everyones praying for you."

I just say...IVE HAD FAITH FOR 12 YEARS....WHAT AM I DOING WRONG THAT KEEPS HIM FROM TAKING CARE OF THIS CRUD!!

Sometimes, I still feel like that, but I am just praying to stay strong and be able to keep my faith in Him and know that he is the one in charge of my life. Not me. Got to remember that, don't try and rule everything in your life. I know you will more than likely have to step up and take the responsibility in the family, but you have to take and leave all your problems with him. Don't YOU worry about it. Do what you have to do and let him do the rest.

I know its hard to believe/trust, thats what the mean ol' bully downstairs does. Thats why its called Faith because its alot easier to just give up.

Basically like anything in your life, when you set a goal for something....its so much easier to just say screw it, I give up. Ya know, but when you keep the goal its like keeping the Faith. Prove to Him and yourself that you can do it and don't give in.

Sorry if I sounded preachy, but I understand how you feel.
Not the family issues, mine are medical....
But I know how you feel about doubting God and wondering why in the world this stuff has to happen.

Sorry this is so long :D

[emily.]

god doesnt really exist as someone up there who changes everything and gives you good luck and makes everything better.
in my opinion, God is a state of mind, and sme people who believe in god pray to him, and use their faith as something that helps THEM get through it.
You can get thorough it, you can use god's help or not, but i know that you can get though it.

[_onmyown]

But God is helping you through it when you are getting through it. lol

Won't argue though, you have your reasons...as does everyone else I suppose. :)